another way

i am sitting in my room, reading. i am listening to music, loud, because my housemates are listening to even louder music that i think is awful.
i am reading and i am thinking and i am getting visions and i am getting scared.
do we really ever stop to think about what jesus meant when he said sell your things and join the poor. whatever you do to the least you do to me. love your neighbor as yourself. ?
i don't think i ever stop and think about these things, because if i did i would be alot more scared alot more of the time.
my heart is changing too and i am real scared.

i am excited too.